September 28th, 2007 | |
Posted in work
They call it the “Quarter-life Crisis.” It is when
you stop going along with the crowd and start
realizing that there are many things about
yourself that you didn’t know and may not like.
You start feeling insecure and wonder where you
will be in a year or two, but then get scared
because you barely know where you are now.
You start realizing that people are selfish and
that, maybe, those friends that you thought you
were so close to aren’t exactly the greatest
people you have ever met (so so true!), and the
people you have lost touch with are some of the
most important ones. What you don’t recognize is
that they are realizing that too, and aren’t
really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that
they are as confused as you.
You look at your job…and it is not even close to
what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you
are looking for a job and realizing that you are
going to have to start at the bottom and that
scares you.
Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what
others are doing and find yourself judging more
than usual because suddenly you realize that you
have certain boundaries in your life and are
constantly adding things to your list of what is
acceptable and what isn’t.
One minute, you are insecure and then the next,
secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force
of your life. You feel alone and scared and
confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you
try and cling on to the past with dear life, but
soon realize that the past is drifting further
and further away, and there is nothing to do
but stay where you are or move forward.
You get your heart broken and wonder how someone
you loved could do such damage to you :(. Or you
lay in bed and wonder why you can’t meet anyone
decent enough that you want to get to know
better. Or maybe you love someone but love
someone else too and cannot figure out why you
are doing this because you know that you aren’t a
bad person.
One night stands and random hook ups start to look
cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot
starts to look pathetic. You go through the same
emotions and questions over and over, and talk
with your friends about the same topics because
you cannot seem to make a decision.
You worry about loans, money, the future and
making a life for yourself…..and while winning
the race would be great, right now you’d just
like to be a contender!
What you may not realize is that everyone reading
this relates to it.
We are in our best of times and our worst of
times,trying as hard as we can to figure this
whole thing out.
